Confessions, Truths, and Growing Pains

A long overdue check in

Confession- I have a full creative life where I wear the hat of many different characters at any given moment. I’m also going through a massive body shift- medically forced reverse puberty also known as menopause.

Confession- I don’t remember much of what it felt like to go through puberty but I’m staying curious and in awe of my body reversing the process while witnessing my daughters actually experience it for the first time. The irony. You can’t make this stuff up. My life and their lives collide, it’s as messy as you imagine.

Truth- Words have not been flowing and my journal has been only filled with the dreams I remember upon waking and my semi-monthly moon observances. I haven’t been here to share the wisdom that pours from me because I’m in surrender as well as in denial. I have surrendered to my body and her needs, a task that I have rarely done for myself in life up until it demanded it. Denial that I can’t be here and share even when it’s messy.

Truth- You know what power looks like? Saying the thing we all need to hear without care or worry of what others will think. Admitting we are powerless to something and rising to meet the challenge like a women. Knowing that I am powerful because I have given up waiting for the perfect moment to speak and instead I’m just doing it.

Growing Pains- I have become aware of so many lies I have been told about my body and how it functions. The limits that have been placed on us as humans by “well meaning” doctors and organizations. My faith in the Creative Spirit and my belief in my Body to know what it needs have ran smack into each other. This is uncomfortable because it means I am once again doing things out of my comfort zone and way outside of mainstream. Moment by moment I am living in full faith in myself and my connection to the Divine Spirit. The universe is responding by giving me more of what I need each time I open up and allow it.

Truth- I will be back here to share my inspiring words with you when I feel the inspiration. I will tell you stories of being messy in menopause. I will share the amazing power of self healing through creative thought. I will dive deep into being a mystic of the body and mind in ways we were never taught as humans. Most importantly, I will be here to be me, which is my gift to Spirit. I believe that by sharing my love of life, my struggles as well as triumphs, and to share my collected wisdom I can make a tiny ripple that will prove you can create anything out of life if you desire to.

I love and miss you all. Thank you for supporting my words by reading them. Thoughts have power.

xoxo,

Lena